Hey. This is me sitting under the rain. Alone with my laptop, missing you. I've been spotting some changes on us lately. It's not a good one, though. But my honest question was, why we're still together? There's just something in my heart that holds you so tight and I just don't want you to go. I guess, we both fight for each other. I mean literally, fighting. Arguing for some small things that none of us would possibly care, actually. Right? We are being so ridiculous like there's no tomorrow. I just feel sad, happy and miserable at best. Most of all, I feel grateful to still have you today and forever.
Sometimes I feel sad. I feel happy. I feel so bubbly that I could just jump and shout my heart out to say that I love you. Yes, people said it's true. Overthink can ruin your day, even your relationship. So, I have to stop. But sometimes, I feel like I need your attention. Idk. I hate to say this but I miss the old us, so much. I wouldn't even beg for us to be like we used to be but I really miss those moments, when we just do what we want, stay stupid, having fun, laugh at each other's silly faces, those late night conversations, those days when we just go out and have fun. I miss those. I hope you do too.
I would do anything to get them back. I'm sure. But the big and obvious question is, WHEN WILL SPM END ALREADY OMG THIS IS SO TIRING I MIGHT AS WELL GET TO MY ROOM AND START READING BOOKS WHILE OTHERS HAVE FUN AND I JUST RUST WITH MY OWN PATHETIC LIFE. Hahahahahahahah sounds stressful enough, don't I? Whatever. I don't even mean it. As long as I have you, everything will be fine.
Why do we always find it so
hard to be happy?
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