Perfection.

Okay, this will be my weirdest blog post ever. Like I said, I need those happy pills and now, I need other pills. I need self-esteem pills, I need my strength pills and the most important is, the perfection pills. I just felt that I lost everything. My confidence, my sense of humor, my happiness and my"self". Idk why, I just feel like I'm tired and bored of my life. And there is a light, that shines through me. That 'light' gave me a new life. Thanks to you, I can get my happiness back. I feel appreciated when I'm with you. Like I said, 'I'm only perfect because I have you'. I hope you remember that quote because I miss you.

Other than that, I want to say something. I know I'm not perfect. Just say it, that I'm a host of imperfection. Okay fine. I really feel like I'm willing to kill myself after I wrote this blog post. I hate this world. Can I get out of this narrow-minded people? I hate their perceptions about me. I feel sad because I'm different and being different is tough. I hope you guys understand the way I feel. Another thing, my condition now makes me feel like I wanted to be alone all the time. I'm sitting alone in the class, I don't have friends as much as I do before,
I feel like I lost something but I don't know what is it. Seriously, I hate this.

Btw, I want to talk about something. The fight and the argument are so messed up. I'm sorry. I didn't know that the fight is going to effect our relationship. I just miss you, please change yourself. I want us to be best friends, but I rather be the closest person that's ever exist for you. I want you back in my life and so you can shine through me again. I'm so confused to make this decision. I love you. Please don't leave me again like we do it the last time. I lost my hope. I know that we left each other for our own reasons and I hope I can get through this to accept you back. I'm sorry.

If you love me again,

I swear I love you right.